Ok, less than 4 days to go (as the op is in the morning, and it's now the afternoon!!) I am starting to panic now!!! I know, without a shadow of a doubt that this is the right thing to do, but I am so scared!! I know it was stupid, but I watched the op on YouTube, stupid, stupid, stupid, I know what they're going to do, I know that, I 'could' hear what's going on, and it won't be pretty!!! I know that I shouldn't be scared as even if I am awake (or semi awake) it won't hurt, but I am just completely petrified!!!
If you hadn't figured out already, I am writing this for me, I write my fears down and they go away (I don't intend anyone to find out about this blog, if you have stumbled across it, I apologise!!!) what I am doing is rationalising it all in my head I think.
Ok, todays adventures, I have loaded the dishwasher, put the washing on and dried it. Then I went upstiars to make my bedroom presentable to the world!!! By that I mean, tidied up books off the floor, moved the heap of clothes that I have been walking around for months, dusted, just generally made it presentable for if anyone visits and I am in bed, but all that crawling around on the floor and getting up and down, doesn't help my hip. Do you know, it has given me more gip since I have stopped work than it did when I was working, mainly because when I worked, I worked for 12 hours ish per day, so there was no time in the day for anything but work, and towards the end I never left my office, to help my hip as much as possible. Since I've been off work, I have made the effort to go for some sort of walk every day, plus I have been cleaning and tidying, and it hurts!!! I know that staying as active as possible is good, but it hurts to be active!!
I haven't had a phonecall from the hospital, so that is good. If my blood tests or swabs showed anything bad, they were going to ring me today to sort out antibiotics, true, they still could, as it is only 15.18, but I think the chances are now slim that they are going to ring (I hope I haven't jinxed it!!). I am thinking of taking a photo of my scar on my leg as it is now tonight and posting it on here, so I can compare afterwards the difference, mmmmm, might have to give that one some thought!!
Ok, that's my exciting day.
See you tomorrow
Independance of the Seas
The holiday of a lifetime, after my cortisone injection, whilst it was working, probably one of the last times that I was able to walk any distance without. my stick
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